steady as she goes
If “queer time” is a thing (and yes, yes, it is), then I think “survivor time” is also a thing. Survivors of abuse experience time completely differently from a person who hasn’t been through it.
If you combine my queer time with my survivor time, then…I mean, it makes absolute sense that I feel lost in time, pretty much all the time.
beyond faith, beyond reason
Oh, yes. Finished The Secret Commonwealth…either yesterday or the night before it, and I just. Just.
I don’t know what to say, really. It wasn’t perfect (there seemed some mild inconsistencies with dæmon ‘mechanics’, for lack of a better term, that were introduced in HDM…but again, we saw those things almost solely through Lyra’s purview as a child, and she’s now an adult and privy to things she just didn’t know as a child, so…), but I loved it, and…it punched me right in the heart, and I needed it to.
“Had reason ever created a poem, or a symphony, or a painting? If rationality can’t see things like the secret commonwealth, it’s because rationality’s vision is limited. The secret commonwealth is there. We can’t see it with rationality any more than we can weigh something with a microscope: It’s the wrong sort of instrument. We need to imagine as well as measure.”
You know what I love the most about the book? Is that this is absolutely not a children’s book. Lyra grew up and the original readers grew up, too, and it honestly feels like Philip Pullman wrote this for us, which is admittedly ridiculous, but. I feel a little more anchored in the world because this book exists. Isn’t that weird?
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*spittakes* WHAT–
(October 18, 2019 · BTS, music)
OKAY, STOP RIGHT NOW, STOP. BigHit, what is wrong with you?! Why does this boy still think he can’t sing?! (I’m talking about Yoongi, I mean. Anyone with two ears can tell that when Joonie sticks to his range, he has a voice as smooth and beautiful as midsummer dusk. All of mono., particularly “forever rain”, that will be all. And his sung verse in “4 O’Clock” which literally gave me goosebumps and stopped me cold the first time I heard it. And also presents Taehyung in his personal tessitura, no less, so…) He is hitting and holding every note, naturally, without straining, and his voice is warm (tonally).
I’m screwed if I can find the video now, but it’s like when they were ‘operatically’ singing happy birthday to…actually they do this pretty much every time someone has a birthday, but in this one video Yoongi was closest to the mic and I could hear him perfectly. He was being silly, but the thing is, his vocal control was excellent. Like, he hit the note, he held it, and again, strong and warm tonally. I was just like “…wait a minute. Has…has no one heard this, or…?”
What the…like, I’m fairly sure I’ve said this before, but does THE RAP LINE CAN SING. They just need training — and in Yoongi and Joon’s cases, MORE CONFIDENCE. You aren’t bad singers, you’re just BARITONES! In a band full of bloody lyric tenors! (Or character baritones who can sing in lyric tenor if they like, no big deal, Kim Taehyung your frickin’ range–) Specifically, Namjoon’s a lyric baritone and Yoongi’s a cavalier baritone. (Yes, I know operatic fachs don’t really work outside operatic music but shush, I like categorising things and besides there’s more specificality if you use the operatic types.)
If BigHit would sink some money into training those two (and getting Jin to abandon his high head voice and just go for the falsetto instead), they could produce even more incredible music than they already do, like, those voices are pure gold for slow jams and just bascially any R&B flavoured anything. Can’t sing my frickin’ flat backside. YES, THEY CAN. TRAIN THEM. Heck it, I’ll do it for free if you like! You are WASTING THEM!
(Ugh yes this appears to be a berserk button with me, probably because I felt like I wasn’t a “real” singer for years and years, literally…because I’m not a soprano. I’m a lyric mezzo-soprano [to be super-specific, I’m a female lyric tenor, actually, but what even is gender in music I have a falsetto too does this mean my XX chromosomes are gonna turn inside out or something] and I spent ACTUAL LONG PERIODS OF TIME being like “I’m only half a singer, I’m just a mezzo…” There’s no such thing as just a mezzo/alto/contralto/baritone/bass, dammit! We all exist and we’re frickin’ RARER than goddamn tenors/sopranos so TREASURE US. Oh my god. Higher does not automatically mean better!
…when I said ‘appears’ to be a berserk button, I think I mean ‘is’.)
the actual lyrics
(October 2, 2019 · BTS, music)
kimchi fried rice
hamburger and sprite
chicken noodle soup
WIT A SODA ON THE SIDE
I am ARMY and I take every single thing BTS does very, very seriously, as you can tell. Go watch the TRILINGUAL video; Becky G is drop-dead gorgeous and I think bones are like, optional for Hobi.