endless chasing

woke myself up this morning yelling “FWCK YOU!” in a dream/real life. other people’s abusers. i do not even put with with their swit when i’m asleep. trufax.

i just knocked back three people in a row from a joinable for not reading the rules. i’m kind of starting to despair; do people not read the actual rules despite claiming they do, or do they just think “whatever, doesn’t apply to me”? the latter would be more galling, for sure, but either way it’s just…ugh. because i’m the one who has to knock them back, which makes me the target of their ire, and i just think…is it worth it, really?

(and then someone will join, actually following the rules, with a website that puts hearts in my eyes and gives me hope for the revival of the personal internet, so…what am i even whining about, really? :P)

song of the day: “Closer”, RM (w/ Paul Blanco and Mahalia). very chill and smooth shade of blue off of his latest, Indigo, which i’m finally getting around to listening to. first thoughts? it’s not as instant a love as mono. was for me, but it’s damn good all the same. i know joonie said it was “10 Blues” in the liner notes & box art, but really, it’s a much wider palette than his previous record, and has a kind of…tanginess? (synæsthesia is gonna be the death of me)…that was present in RM, but isn’t exactly the same kind of taste, as such, either. love love love to hear his singing voice, too, which only improves the more and more he uses it ♥ (don’t be afraid of singing, you beautiful coffee-smooth baritone, you!)