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minor things, in list format

(oh, shush. shounagon-oneesama would approve.)

  1. I’m up to date on requested names! this is so much fun and is the real kick in the backside I needed to improve my Sindarin, which doesn’t come as naturally to me as Quenya (which is…odd, considering I’m a beginning Welsh speaker? brain and brain, what is brain?). iiiit also gives me a chance to babble on about two things I love, elves and onomastics. oh, the things that could have been, if only the world hadn’t ended…
  2. (when I say “I want to go home”, it includes all parts of my home.)
  3. I know this misery is merely due to the two (half-useless) benzos I had to sink over the past 48 hours, but oh my goodness I wish it would go away; I can’t afford to burst into tears again, I have no painkillers for the resulting headaches
  4. …I spent all day yesterday thinking it was Friday. welp.

pixel pixies

I have nothing of any remote interest to report, as I’m sure everyone is used to by now.

I made some elvish sprites!

Arwen: angel dress, riding outfit, farewell dress, dream gown


Galadriel: in Númenor, and in the 3rd Age

I’ll throw them up on the pixel site as soon as I’m finished redesigning it. Shouldn’t be too long, I hope.

What Lips My Lips Have Kissed, and Where, and Why

Thus in winter stands the lonely tree,
Nor knows what birds have vanished one by one,
Yet knows its boughs more silent than before:
I cannot say what loves have come and gone,
I only know that summer sang in me
A little while, that in me sings no more.

well, still. pretty good year.

Birthday was a birthday. Most people, including one immediate blood relative, forgot it happened. Oh well. Those who did remember are my favourites. So there!

I got an Eevee, a sleeping Kirby, socks, and a gardening set.  Good times! (No, not being sarcastic. It’s a lot more than I expected and I like all of it so much. ♥)

Trying to smush my writing and personal site together onto Neocities again, but I’m so mentally bombed out that inspiration’s lying thin on the ground at the moment. I’m so glad that this hit after clearing out my to-do list for the month, but it still sucks. I feel horrific and I can’t even distract myself with creation. Utter BS.

and never brought to mind

couple of songs for you, on this final day. (Also Spotify, for you astonishingly boring herberts who don’t understand the joy of mp3 collecting.)

Seeing as the beginning of this year was (literally) scarring, this evening I shall be doing very little and won’t tempt fate; coding for both business and pleasure, listening to some good tunes, setting up my various journals, and working on my solo D&D campaign. (Yes, it is possible.)

Stay safe tonight, beloveds. ♥

優しい夜にひとりうたう歌

It’s the season of grace coming out of the void
Where man is saved by a voice in the distance
It’s the season of possible miracle cures
Where hope is currency and death is not the last unknown
Where time begins to fade, and age is welcome home

It’s the season of eyes meeting over the noise
And holding fast with sharp realization
It’s the season of cold making warmth a divine intervention:
“You are safe here; you know now.”

It’s the season of scars and of wounds in the heart
Of feeling the full weight of our burdens
It’s the season of bowing our heads in the wind
And knowing we are not alone in fear,
Not alone in the dark…

Don’t forget, don’t forget, I love, I love, I love you.

“Beauty without colour seems somehow to belong to another world.”

That face you make when you ask a seller to post something express, because it’s meant to be a Christmas gift, and they just…don’t. Five days out from Christmas. Great. Good. Grood. Great and good.

On the upside, that face you make when you’re commissioned by one of your favourite clients once again, to make a website themed in one of your special interests ♥

On the wtf-side…that weather where it’s too humid and gross to do, uh, anything with the aircon off, but if you turn it on, you need to wear a jacket. Hooray for the subtropics?

Everything balances out in the end, I suppose. Stay beautiful, kids. xx

(Also, apropos of I-can’t-sleep-anymore, this is absolutely adorable.)

we set the stars to dancing in the night sky

I’m going to post this entry and then I’m not going to look at a single other line of code until at least 11am tomorrow morning — I’ve been HTMLing away all day! 😀 I’ve been working on my Secret Santa’s gift, and on these two! I’m especially happy about those two, because I adopted them from someone I was sure didn’t like me (or found me petty at the very least), and I was sure they’d tell me what I could do with myself. But I was worried about nothing! There’s no bad blood between us, they’re a lovely person from what I’ve seen, and I’m actually kind of embarrassed as how anxious I was sending off the initial emails, now ^^;; Haha, paranoid Rin is eternally paranoid, but all’s well that end’s well! I’ll take very good care of the listings for as long as I have them ♥

A load of witchy goodness, mostly journal-related, came in the mail today~ Including candles! Gasp. There’s a first for me. I’ve never been much into candle magick (despite being a witch since I was 17…), maybe a stray spell here or there, but the candle has never been one of my preferred magickal tools. I have forty coloured candles in my goodies chest, now, mostly for Colourwork reasons (I’ll elaborate more on that either later, or on a purposefully witchy blog I’ll set up at some point). We’ll see how it all goes, but I’m hopeful it’ll be fulfilling.

It’s been a difficult day painwise (physio visit was NOT an immediate help with that, let me tell you, but I suppose stuff has to get more painful before it can get better), and it was disgustingly hot without warning (thanks for nothing, BOM!), but I’m happy all the same. It’s been a productive day and I hope the rest of the evening will be relaxing. Back to it after eleven tomorrow, like I said! But until then, I think I’ll just laze about in front of the telly and crochet. ♥

I’ll be your zodiac on a different star track

Three people I love have birthdays on this particular day…so many awesome people I know are Sagittarians ♥ Twinfish aren’t supposed to be compatible with the Archers, but they seem to do well with me. Them, and Geminis, for some reason. The relationships are usually intense, and by no means conflict-free, but they’re the most rewarding and impactful ones in my life. Quite odd! (Also, weirdly, almost every Aquarius I’ve ever known has been cruel, selfish, and duplicitous. I’m sure that’s just unhappy coincidence, though.)

My back is killing me. I am far too young for this nonsense, honestly. External obliques, what nonsense. I’ll book myself in to have the things removed posthaste, methinks.